Saturday, April 23, 2011
Its you that I feel around
For though you are not with me today
your love haunts me all along.
This day long loneliness, though killing
has turned for me into an eternal bliss
For its only for those moments
That I can silently feel your presence that I so dearly miss.
These feelings might seem new to you
but for me these have become a life
This loneliness created by your void
has turned me into an heartless droid.
I loved you since the day we met
and all I got in return was betrayal
You might have thought it as a lie
but this love, I promise would never die.
I don’t complain of this loneliness
for this is the only gift of you that I have
But still love! Is thy heart so tough
that you defy all feelings.
Don’t you remember that once you too used to love me
or the promises we had made
Don’t you yearn for the time we spent together
or the castles we made.
Were those castles so weak to fall so suddenly
or our love, so profound it used to seem, was so shady
I accept there were mistakes
but couldn’t they have been repented.
I know you too long for me
That you also want us back again
So love! Why you still keep a rough heart
while both our souls live a life in pain.
Come forward and hold my hand
and again be mine
Lets get back together again
and fill our lives with a new sunshine.
P.S.- I couldn’t think of some apt title for this poem, So if you could suggest some, I would be grateful to you.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Title : When I entered my room all I saw was red
The incident i describe took place some years back
When the government administration had begun to slack
Happiness, love and brotherhood were lost somewhere
Just the news of riots and murders were everywhere
To discuss the remedies of these
People were invited to a five star hotel cheeze
We discussed many petty issues during the meet
While we were being served snacks, coke and meat
There the clocks ticked faster than we had ever dreamt
Still we couldn't come to a decision that really meant
Yearning for freedom from that surrounding gloom
I left the discussion and walked to a room
All i saw there was red
Be it the floor or the bedThe walls were painted bloody red
All this gave me an awkward feeling that someone had bled
To ease my mind I walked across the room
And as I did so I felt getting sucked in some gloom
As such thoughts continued to creep
I didn't realise when I was hunted down by sleep
In that sleep i had a dream
Which came with a faint gleam
In it a dwarf came
Horlicks was his name
He made me realise
The pain of the sufferers and empathise
But Oh! suddenly the dwarf disappeared
As he went i got scared
For he was followed by a man in cloak
So scary was he that my dream broke
Waking up from my dream
I felt like crying out in a scream
That the red around me signified my bleeding conscience
Which I had left somewhere in my journey to find out the mysteries of science
This incident left me unbiased
On my longing to help the sufferers of riots
That's all I want to say
To all my friends who love to live and play
I ask you to be selfless, loving and kind
And work for the betterment of mankind
Stand up to remove the evils that lead to riots and discrimination
For in that way you will be contributing for the development of your nation
Friday, August 20, 2010
There have been uncountable instances in my life in which my determined decision making quality has proved to be an asset for me. I am a kind of person who rarely changes his decision once it has been made. But yes, before taking any decision, I fully consider the pros and cons of the situations and the
various options I have. I also weigh the doubts and suggestions of others before coming to a decision. This thoughtful decision making saves the time which people generally spend on reconsidering their decisions. I usually use this time in implementing my decision or doing some other creative work.
Thinking about instances where my thoughtful and firm decisions have proved themselves the best, the first instance which comes to my mind is a quite recent one. It was regarding the selection of branch in IIT. Bombay and Delhi have metro culture. The charm of the city and the feeling that a metro city would give you more exposure in the various walks of life attracts students to go to IIT Powai or IIT Delhi. I was also asked by my parents to fill up Bombay and Delhi as my first choices. But I was quite resolute to come to IIT Kanpur due to better quality of academics and research facilities it provides. They accepted my choice half‐heartedly. But when they came to Kanpur and themselves the saw structure and quality of education here, they felt that I had taken the right decision. From my side too, I feel the same. In IIT
Kanpur, the academics and research facilities are par excellence. Apart from academics there are many hobby clubs where students can learn and practice their hobbies. There are student bodies here which take assist the administration in taking many important decisions. This helps in the development of leadership qualities in them and gives them experience of various situations in life.
I had to make one more similar kind of decision about two years back when I was in the eleventh standard. I had to choose a subject in which I would continue my studies. Due to my passion in science, I chose the science stream. Now I had the choice of biology or mathematics. Although my parents had
given me full freedom of choice but there were many people who were expecting, or rather advising, me to take biology. They would say your parents are in the medical field, so you would surely do better in biology. This all continued even after I had opted for maths due to my fervor for programming and maths. But when the results were declared for JEE and other exams like KVPY, people finally realized that my decision was not wrong.
There are many more instances where this quality has helped me. Apart from the help it gives, this quality also increases my confidence when my decision goes correct. Also it makes me open to all kinds of situations I may face in future. It gives me a strong standing in situations where a quick decision is
needed. Decision making quality is an important one for a leader as it puts him in a strong position. So I think this consideration qualifies me to be a distinguished ‘Aditya Birla Scholar’.
When I was in third standard, I was introduced to the LOGO language as a part of my school curriculum. That language was a source of enjoyment for me. Watching the pointer move and make various figures at my command was fun. This fun eventually developed an interest in me and opened me to a new
world of computers and programming. As I was introduced to more programming languages like FoxPro, 'c' and C++, programming went on to become my passion and my favorite pastime.
I have a deep passion for science. When I had to make a choice of subject in eleventh standard, I chose to continue my studies in science field. So then I had to choose between mathematics and biology. I was keenly interested in programming and maths and wanted to do my graduation in computer science from one of the premier institutes of engineering, so I chose maths. Also I felt that I could reach more people, that is, I can give more benefits to mankind if I am in engineering field than if I am in medical field.
CSE department of IIT Kanpur is one of the best in the entire world. I always wanted to be a part of this department. So when I secured a rank in JEE with which I could make my dream come true, my first choice was this department which would teach me all what I always wanted to.
Now when I am a part of this department, I aspire to learn all those things related to programming and computers that I always wanted to. Besides regular academics, I want to make my concepts clear about various complex programming skills. I would also like to learn more about the network structure which links the computers all over the world. I want to learn about its design, its functioning and the ways in which it was programmed. I also aspire to learn the logics of programming and algorithm development.
I wish to learn more about operating systems and their functioning. I also want to learn high performance computing which includes the programming of super computers and parallel programming for research work which I yearn to do after passing out from here.
After doing this course, I want to go for an M Tech. and PhD. Degree in one of the best universities of the world. Then I plan to return to India and associate myself with some kind of research work with which I can do something for the betterment of mankind.